Help.

This was written during probably my 'darkest' moments.
Working full time, to make ends meet, I felt like I was carrying the responsibility of the world on my shoulders.
Robert was putting pressure on Keith and Roxanne, my relationship with them and my marriage.
My marriage in tatters, Keith and Roxanne appearing to resent Robert. The family of two parts....Mum and Robert and Dad, Keith and Roxanne. I think that I had some kind of breakdown. I wanted to scream and throw things about!
The only way that I felt I was 'allowed' to express how I felt was to write this....It didn't help much though!

The evening sun envelopes me with golden caresses.

The moon sends her silver dreams, and lays them at my feet

With each wave that sweeps the shore.

To fill my cup of desires until all suppressed emotions overflow,

And lay unused....not needed and wasted

Amongst the pebbles and broken shells.

My feelings are pressed into the damp sand 

Beneath quiet, lonely footprints,

To be claimed by the passing tides.

Silently, the sea consumes all,

And lays them to rest 

With secrets and unfulfilled wishes of others

Who take this path along the beach.

1993.